come pick me up, ive landed

the power to walk away.
i have such a longing for home, in all situations.. the apartment, carousel, kzoo... and the need to start all over and create a new one.

throw it all around, like its nothing special, just a sound

it's funny how you can give words of comfort, words to empower another, in hopes of them realizing the light and hold on for one more day... when all seems abandoned and they have lost the last little glittering speck of hope, just a simple gesture of kindness or a few meaningful sentences letting them know they are worth the fight because
they are
who they are
and that alone should be enough- they have worth and they are beautiful.
they take that with them, let it sink in, and have a wonderful self realization at some point down the road that turns over a new leaf and life becomes okay again. one step in front of the other...



unfortunately, you yourself dont believe in a damn word you just said.

open up the book you beat me with again

Open up the book you beat me with again.
Read it off one sentence at a time.
I'm tired of all the lines,
Convictions and your lies.
What right do you have to point at me?

Well, I'm sitting alone thinking about it all over coffee.
And still crowdin' my space are the things you still hold against me.
You cannot save me.

you are a rock, upon which i stand, and ive come here to talk, i hope you understand

im really missing kalamazoo at the moment.
i miss watching the world from the balcony with alia.
going to hear jon and rob play open mic night.
walking around campus with johney.
going to hunan with jes.
late night talks with joe.
i like warm nights in kalamazoo- whether it was walking downtown from campus to sit, talk, and smoke in the pavilion, hang out at the bar, play games at video hits, or sit and watch the fountains.
i think i need to go back soon...

i had to fall to lose it all, but in the end, it doesnt even matter

She said I don't know if I've ever been good enough I'm a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in And I don't know if I've ever been really loved By hand that's touched me, well I feel like something's gonna give And I'm a little bit angry, well This ain't over, no not here, not while I still need you around You don't owe me, we might change Yeah we just might feel good (Chorus) I wanna push you around, well I will, well I will I wanna push you down, well I will, well I will I wanna take you for granted, I wanna take you for granted, yeah I will, I will Well I will She said I don't know why you ever would lie to me Like I'm a little untrusting when I think that the truth is gonna hurt ya And I don't know why you couldn't just stay with me You couldn't stand to be near me When my face don't seem to want to shine 'cuz It's a little bit dirty well Don't just stand there, say nice things to me I've been cheated I've been wronged you, And you don't know me, I can't change I won't do anything at all (Chorus) I wanna push you around, well I will, well I will I wanna push you down, well I will, well I will I wanna take you for granted, I wanna take you for granted, yeah I will, I will Oh but don't bowl me over Just wait a minute well it kinda fell apart, things get so crazy, crazy Don't rush this baby, don't rush this Baby, baby (Chorus) I wanna push you around, well I will, well I will I wanna push you down, well I will, well I will I wanna take you for granted, yeah, yeah, yeah I wanna take you, take you, yeah, well I will, I will, I will, I will I will, I will, I will, Yeah, yeah, push you around, I'll drag you down, I wanna push you around Well I will

Honey why you callin me so lateIt's kinda hard to talk right nowHoney why you cryinIs everything okI gotta whisper cause I can't be too loudWell my girl's in the next roomSometimes I wish it it was youI guess we never really moved onIt's really good to hear your voiceSay my name It sounds so sweetComin from the lips of an angelHearin those wordsIt makes me weakLetters INever want to say goodbyeBut girl you make it hard to be faithfulWith the lips of an angelIt's funny that you're callin me tonightAnd yes I dreamt of you tooHe dosen't know you're talkin to meWe'll start a fightNo, I don't think she has a clueWell, my girl's in the next roomSometimes I wish it it was youI guess we never really moved onIt's really good to hear your voiceSay my name It sounds so sweetComin from the lips of an angelHearin those wordsIt makes me weakLetters INever want to say goodbyeBut girl you make it hard to be faithfulWith the lips of an angelIt's really good to hear your voiceSay my name it sounds so sweetComin from the lips of an angelHearin those wordsIt makes me weakLetters INever want to say goodbyeBut girl you make it hard to be faithfulWith the lips of an angelNever want to say goodbyeBut girl you make it hard to be faithfulWith the lips of an angelHoney why you callin me so late?

I feel my wings have broken in your handsI feel the words unspoken in sidePull you underAnd I would give you anything you wantOoohYou were all I wantedAnd all my dreams have fallen downCrawling around (round)Somebody save meLet warm hands break right threw and Somebody save meI dont care how you do it just Save Save Come onI've been waiting for youI see the world has folded in your heartI feel the waves crash down insideIt pulled me under I would give you anything you wantOoohYou were all I wanted All my dreams have fallen downCrawling around (round)Somebody save me Let you warm hands break right threw andSomebody save meI dont care how you do it just SaveSaveCome on I've been waiting for youAll my dreams are on the groundCrawling around (round)Somebody save meLet your warm hands break right threw andSomebody save meI dont care how you do it Just save meI'll make this whole world shine for youJust SaveSave Come onIm still waiting for you

frightened of jumping, incase i survive...

I figured I should probably post something new on here since I've told a couple people that this blog is in existance.

I actually dont even know what to write..
maybe ill try again tomorrow and see if i can form into words whats going on inside me at the moment.

I just wonder how much of recent events will come back to kick me in the ass. Truthful or not, I like the reassurance of "everything will be alright".


I look away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Todays the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I'm in love with you

the weather today is slightly sarcastic with a chance of A: indifference or B: distinterest

5 am. going to sleep.
i have a feeling today is going to be a good day. :D


KARMA'S A BITCH, AINT IT??



i would thank a god if i believed in one.

/em VICTORY



*lights up imaginary cigarette and exhales with a shit-eating grin
*blows you a kiss

GOOD NIGHT, DETROIT!!
*makes crowd cheering noise and jogs to bed singing the Rocky music

this song is turning me on, the beat is doing me in, or maybe its only you

i think i should bring in a reel of the Sexual Harassment Panda with me to every new job... maybe it will make working a little less "exciting"...

i guess i could just stop working in hotpants and pasties.. that might help.
*shrug

*blonde voice* it sucks to be popular ! *hair flip

but then again....
im not blonde anymore...

if theres music we can use it, be free to dance...

Word Up.



all i want to do is make a britney kylie music mix...
i sing it frequently in the shower...
cos you know...

i do that.

ill be anything you want, youll love me more than you love yourself

Standing in the kitchen with two of my sisters, saying goodbye to our mother is always funny to us. Sam is usually making comments about how she is the favorite of the six kids and always has to be the last one to kiss mom goodbye- which always makes Mom laugh, and calls us idiots. Sometimes, Sam will ask Mom if she is shrinking, but this is usually when we have our shoes on and are standing 5'9" (sam), 5'10" (nik), and 5'11" (me).
Other than being near my mom, I don't really know whats keeping me in Novi.
I would say that I miss Kzoo, but I only miss the people, not the city.
My brother will have a low budget horror slasher film on Blockbuster shelves soon. Maybe we can "celebrate" with a ritual OP/bad movie night if we can get back into town around its highly anticipated release date. And no, we cant get our $3 back when we turn if off half way into it.
and so fat kids.. im out...

lights will guide you home and ignite your bones and i will try to fix you

SEE THIS i give it 3 thumbs up.
.. er... wait..

does she lend an eager hand, to save you from the future of being with her

This is Shrek. I got to babysit him for a week. Him, and 2 Cockatiels that sing the theme to Green Acres over and over and over.....
Twas an experience.

...the threeway with your wife and that librarian chick- now thats good lovin!

An insurance policy with a robot plan? Sign me up.

can't you see, it's not me youre dying for

An elderly couple was attending church services, about halfway through she leans over and says, " I just let a silent fart what do you think I should do?"
He replies " Put a new battery in your hearing aid."

Wanda's dishwasher quit working so she called a repairman. Since she had togo to work the next day, she told the repairman, "I'll leave the key under the mat. Fix the dishwasher, leave the bill on the counter, and I'll mail you a check. Oh, by the way don't worry about my bulldog. He won't bother you. But,whatever you do, do NOT, under ANY circumstances, talk to my parrot! I REPEAT, DO NOT TALK TO MY PARROT!!!" When the repairman arrived at Wanda's apartment the following day, he discovered the biggest, meanest looking bulldog he has ever seen. But, just as she had said, the dog just lay there on the carpet watching the repairman go about his work. The parrot, however, drove him nuts the whole time with his incessant yelling, cursing and name calling. Finally the repairman couldn't contain himself any longer and yelled, "Shut up, you stupid, ugly, bird!" To which the parrot replied, "Get him, Spike!"

and just like the movies, we play out our last scene

Movie Buffs: tell me how you do ;)

as the pain sweeps through, makes no sense for you, every thrill is gone, wasn't too much fun at all

Police are warning all men who frequent clubs, parties and local pubs to be alert and stay cautious when offered a drink from any woman. Many females use a date rape drug on the market called "Beer." The drug is found in liquid form and is available anywhere. It comes in bottles, cans, or from taps and in large "kegs". Beer is used by female sexual predators at parties and bars to persuade their male victims to go home and sleep with them. A woman needs only to get a guy to consume a few units of Beer and then simply ask him home for no strings attached sex. Men are rendered helpless against this approach After several beers, men will often succumb to the desires to sleep with horrific looking women whom they would never normally be attracted. After drinking beer, men often awaken with only hazy memories of exactly what happened to them the night before, often with just a vague feeling that "something bad" occurred. At other times these unfortunate men are swindled out of their life's savings, in a familiar scam known as "a relationship." In extreme cases, the female may even be shrewd enough to entrap the unsuspecting male into a longer term form of servitude and punishment referred to as "marriage." Men are much more susceptible to this scam after beer is administered and sex is offered by the predatory females. Please! Forward this warning to every male you know. If you fall victim to this "Beer" scam and the women administering it, there are male support groups where you can discuss the details of your shocking encounter with similarly victimized men. For the support group nearest you, just look up "Golf Courses" in the phone book.

see how it works here...

i think i used to have a voice, now i never make a sound

cos i need more time.. i need more time just to make it right...

i think i'll call him... Fluffy

Im changing now, the wind is at my back, and i am so ready to go

in honor of Joe's contest a while back for "worst sequel" ideas...

the winner was
Crying Game 2: Cry Harder
(which still makes me laugh) but i was thinking the trilogy should be
Crying Game 3: There's Something about Mary

any takers? ;)

ive got some imperfections, but how can you collect them all and throw them in my face?

WHERE WOULD YOU BE IF:

YOU HAVE ALL THE MONEY YOUR HEART DESIRES
YOU HAVE NO WORRIES ...
YOU COME HOME AND THE FINEST MEAL IS AWAITING YOU...
YOUR BATHWATER HAS BEEN RUN...
YOU HAVE THE PERFECT KIDS...
YOUR PARTNER IS AWAITING YOU WITH OPEN ARMS AND KISSES...

WHERE WOULD YOU BE...





IN THE WRONG FUCKING HOUSE......



Jack wakes up at home with a huge hangover he can't believe. He forces himself to open his eyes, and the first thing he sees is a couple of aspirins next to a glass of water on the side table. And, next to them, a single red rose! Jack sits up and sees his clothing in front of him, all clean and pressed. Jack looks around the room and sees that it is in perfect order, spotlessly clean. So is the rest of the house. He takes the aspirins, cringes when he sees a huge black eye staring back at him in the bathroom mirror, and notices a note on the table: "Honey, breakfast is on the stove, I left early to go shopping--Love you!" He stumbles to the kitchen and sure enough, there is hot breakfast and the morning newspaper. His son is also at the table, eating. Jack asks,"Son... what happened last night?" "Well, you came home after 3 A.M., drunk and out of your mind. You broke some furniture, puked in the hallway, and got that black eye when you ran into the door.""So, why is everything in such perfect order, so clean, I have a rose, and breakfast is on the table waiting for me?"His son replies, "Oh, THAT!... Mom dragged you to the bedroom, and when she tried to take your pants off, you screamed, "Leave me alone, lady, I'm married!"
Broken furniture -- $85.26
Hot Breakfast -- $4.20
Red Rose bud -- $3.00
Two Aspirins -- $0.38
Saying the right thing, at the right time -- Priceless.